Animal Rights Photography

Sometimes I’d rather please animals than people. It’s easier and animals are so grateful. I’m reminded of this quote: “You can easily judge the character of a man by how he treats those who can do nothing for him.”—Malcolm S. Forbes. http://quoteinvestigator.com/2011/10/28/judge-character/

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Animal Rights Photography: Sammantha Fisher Captures Amazing Animal Portraits

Sammantha Fisher is a superb talented self-taught photographer, traveler and lifelong animal lover currently based in Andover, New Jersey, USA.

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My First Real Panic Attack at Age 61

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I needed to read Jana Greene’s post about grace and weakness.

I don’t like to feel weak. I’ve spent all these years trying to be strong and building my skills. So, why, at age 61, with all my training and experience, did i have my first real live panic attack?

I’ve heard plenty of people talk about panic attacks and how bad they can be. I’ve secretly wondered, Do people really need to go to the emergency room? Does it really feel like a heart attack? Are you really being attacked? Can’t we call it something else, something less invasive? Can’t you just take some deep breaths and calm down?

Now I know. Now, I’m humbled.

If it hadn’t been for my years of meditation and breathing practice and my supportive, former EMT husband watching me closely, I might have gone to the emergency room. My chest hurt worse than ever before, and it was hard to breathe. Years ago, I’d gone to the urgent care place with chest pain shortly after my first husband left. It turned out to be stress and acid reflux, but I don’t remember that being as intense as the pain I felt during my first real panic attack couple months ago.

Chest pain is nothing to guess about. When in doubt, get medical attention.

The first good news is, that I know what triggered it. I felt challenged, then I felt cornered and I was hungry.  Since I’m hypoglycemic, I can get shaky and irritable when I’m hungry. It’s best not to challenge me when I’m hungry. Fortunately, I can take steps to minimize exposure to these triggers. I can maintain my boundaries and use the “broken record technique” by simply repeating, “this is not a good time to talk about this.” If I’m able, I’ll offer an alternative time, but simply repeating my boundary is enough.

I’ve been trying not to feel embarrassed about feeling weak, and leaning more toward feeling humbled and gifted – the other good news – explained in Jana’s post . I’m reminded that I’m never going to have it all together, because I’m human. Some weakness will always pop up to humble me and lead me to God’s grace.

 

25 Weird, Unusual, or Interesting Facts About Me

Being inspired by https://thefalliblequeen.wordpress.com/2017/03/09/25-facts/ and remembering how much I enjoyed making “I’m Special” collages when I worked with children of alcoholics and addicts, I decided to try something like this:

  1. I was born in Washington DC and remember my first address: 514 Oglethorpe Street.
  2. I went to kindergarten in Argentia, Newfoundland where my dad was stationed in the Marine Corps during the height of the “cold war.”
  3. In fifth grade, I went to three different schools and lived in four different states when my dad was in Vietnam.
  4. My mother had electro-shock therapy  when I was 10.
  5. My first crush was on Mr. Spock in the original Star Trek series.
  6. I learned to sing listening to The Sound of Music and, later, Karen Carpenter.
  7. I have never lived in a home with an automatic dishwasher.
  8. I’m more afraid of cockroaches than I am snakes, but if I find a spider or moth in the house, I catch it in a jar and put it outside.
  9. I saw the first Star Wars movie 10 times in the movie theater in the late 70s.
  10. I’ve been scuba diving with a school of barracuda.
  11. I like anchovies, but have not had them in a long time.
  12. I have not eaten red meat (beef or pork) for at least 40 years. And I don’t miss it.
  13. I used have my own horse. When I first bought her, I didn’t have a saddle, so I rode bareback. I fell off more than once.
  14. I’m an open-minded Christian who respects and values other religions. (And I’m not the only one.)
  15. I worked as a substance abuse/addictions counselor in a non-profit agency for over 30 years.
  16. I did some private practice work as a certified hypnotherapist and also studied Reiki.
  17. My high school sweetheart found me again after 39 years of no contact, when the time was perfect, and we got married in 2012.(I’m writing a book about it.)
  18. I wanted a partner who loved dogs. My new husband (the high school sweetheart) had 3 dogs when he found me again, and I had two, so we had 5 dogs in our two bedroom house, which thankfully has a big back yard.)
  19. I’m a natural artist and good singer, but I have a real hard time with mechanical things, doing my own taxes, and learning to tie special knots.
  20.  I love to read and write, but I’m a slow reader. In school, I was almost always the last one done on tests.
  21. My imagination is beyond imagination. (Maybe that’s why I’m a slow reader.)
  22. I’d rather pick up trash at the beach or in a park than go to a fancy, expensive dinner where you have to figure out which fork to use.
  23. I have never used an ATM.
  24. I don’t use straws ever since I saw that video with a turtle who got a straw stuck up it’s nose.
  25. I saw angels once. Now, I paint them.
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This is a mural I did on the side of a building which has since been painted over.

 

Just Jot about Spangly, Sparkly Stars and Stuff

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Today’s prompt for Just Jot it January is “Spangly,” provided by Judy at http://www.edwinasepisodes.com/ and brought to you by Rosemary Carlson standing in for Linda Hill of https://lindaghill.com/2017/01/05/jusjojan-daily-prompt-jan-5th17/

Spangly is not a word I’ve used, not that I can remember, though I’ve sung “spangled” in the Star Spangled Banner, singing in private or with a group. In my habitual desire to be accurate, I looked up spangled, then spangle. Apparently, a spangle is like or can be synonymous with sequin.

In spite of my desire for accuracy, which I blame/thank on all those star-spangled Star Trek episodes I watched in my youth, I have a lighter side – the side that likes glitter and sparkles, and I guess spangles, but spangles sound bigger. I’m still trying to understand that word. (See there’s the accurate, Vulcan-like side again.)

The lighter side of me likes to leave the Christmas tree up at least until Martin Luther King day, sometimes later, like until spring buds start to emerge. It depends on how busy I am with other things. Un-decorating is always a gradual process for me. If I did it all at once, things would seem sparse, bare, empty compared to Christmas. Leaving the Christmas decorations up as long as I feel like is part of loving me, too. I love to look at the colored lights – the sparkles, and yes, the spangles. The only reason I don’t leave the tree up all year long, and decorate it for each holiday, is that I live in a small house and by spring, I’m ready for less clutter and more space.

But for now, I’m enjoying the sparkles and spangles and reminders of the star of Bethlehem that the wise men and shepherds followed leading to the epiphany of Jesus.

Now I’m feeling all spangly.

Wishing you light, love, and as Spock would say, “Live long and prosper.”

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Here are the rules for Just Jot it January:

1. It’s never too late to join in! Here, we run on the honour system; the “jot it” part of JusJoJan means that anything you jot down, anywhere (it doesn’t have to be a post, it can even be a grocery list) counts as a “Jot.” If it makes it to your blog that day, great! If it waits a week to get from a sticky note to your screen, no problem!

2. The prompts will be posted every day at 2am my time (GMT -5). You don’t have to follow the prompt word, but this will be where you leave your link for others to see. Make sure you link your post to the correct day’s prompt. There will be a post like this every day except Wednesday, when the prompt is simply my One-Liner Wednesday, and Saturday, when you’ll find the prompt on my usual Friday Reminder post for Stream of Consciousness Saturday (SoCS).

3. As long as your blog is on WordPress, you’ll be able to link via pingback. To execute a pingback, just copy the URL from the daily prompt post, and paste it anywhere in your post. Check to make sure your link shows up where you want it to, and go back occasionally to see other bloggers’ entries – the more you visit others, the more they’ll visit you! If you’re participating from another blogging host, just drop a link into the comment section. Note: The newest pingbacks and comments will be at the top.

4. Tag your post JusJoJan and/or #JusJoJan.

5. Write anything! Any length will do! It can even be a photo or a drawing – you’re going to title it, right? There’s your jot!

6. The prompts are here both to remind you and to inspire you to write. However, you don’t have to use the prompt word of the day. You can link any kind of jot back here. Even your shopping list. Note: If it’s 18+ content, please say so in a comment with your link.

7. If you’d like to, use the JusJoJan badge (above) in your post so that others can find your post more easily.

8. Have fun!

 

 

One – Liner Wednesday from the Grinch

 

“Maybe Christmas,” he thought, “doesn’t come from a store….”   Dr. Seuss 

 

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Visit Linda Hill’s blog for more wonderful one-liners!

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Here are the rules which I break from time to time:

1. Make it one sentence.

2. Try to make it either funny or inspirational.

3. Use our unique tag #1linerWeds.

4. Add our very cool badge to your post for extra exposure!

5. Have fun!

One-Liner Wednesday: It’s Never Too Late

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“It’s Never Too Late to Become What you Might Have Been.”

 

I’m counting on it.

Since I was ten years old, I’ve had a talent for drawing. And I’ve loved to write for as long as I can remember. But I never pursued these creative arts seriously. I just didn’t think they were important enough.

Now, I’m about to turn 61. Beyond midlife. Or maybe not, but it doesn’t matter, because I have today and hopefully tomorrow.

Inspired by Jana Green’s post:

http://thebeggarsbakery.net/2015/12/11/the-dream-makers-daughters-women-stepping-out-in-mid-life/

One Liner Wednesday is brought to you by Linda Hill at

https://lindaghill.com/2016/12/07/one-liner-wednesday-the-answer-is-right-in-front-of-you/

Here’s what Linda says about the rules:

The rules that I’ve made for myself (but don’t always follow) for “One-Liner Wednesday” are:

1. Make it one sentence.

2. Try to make it either funny or inspirational.

3. Use our unique tag #1linerWeds.

4. Add our very cool badge to your post for extra exposure!

5. Have fun!

One-Liner Wednesday: PMS After Menopause

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A photo I took at Brookgreen Gardens

 

Based on no particular research other than my experience, I am convinced that post-menopausal women have subtle hormone cycles that can cause PMS-like symptoms, even 10 years after menopause, leading to a lower tolerance for BS.

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For related and not so related one-liners, visit Linda at

https://lindaghill.com/2016/11/30/one-liner-wednesday-words-to-live-by/

Here are the rules she’s made but confesses to not always follow which is fine by me:

1. Make it one sentence.

2. Try to make it either funny or inspirational.

3. Use our unique tag #1linerWeds.

4. Add our very cool badge to your post for extra exposure!

5. Have fun!