Curve Balls, Lessons, and Blessings

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Sometimes bad things happen to good people. Asking “Why did this happen to me, when I  tried so hard to be good?” didn’t really help. I didn’t want to look at my part in the divorce because it just hurt too much. But eventually, I was able to look at it objectively.

I had felt overwhelmed trying to please everybody, so I focused on my job and made sure the kids were taken care of. My husband felt neglected and left our twenty year marriage. After a long time, I stopped beating myself up. I learned to love myself again and began the long process of forgiveness.

It took years, but the love and forgiveness is what made things better. The lessons I learned along the way have enriched my life and brought blessings I would never have imagined.

How has time given you a different perspective on the curve balls you’ve been thrown?

This post was inspired by https://simplisticinsights.wordpress.com/2017/01/17/curve-balls/

Impenetrable

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There was a time I wished to be impenetrable. I had opened myself too wide, become too vulnerable to the wrong person and never wanted to let that happen again. Fear kept my fences up and well-guarded.

Years went by, and I became accustomed to the loneliness. At least I was safe. I had my friends, my dogs, and I finally loved myself. That should be enough, I thought.

But when I had learned the lessons I needed to learn, a long lost love came knocking at my gate. Would I have the courage to let him in? Was he worth the risk?

This is the song I sang to myself during our second courtship.

 

Telling the larger story is my work in progress.

This post is inspired by the prompt: “impenetrable” provided by “Blog Woman”

And brought to us by Shanjeniah, for Linda Hill’s Just Jot It January series, which can be found at:

https://lindaghill.com/2017/01/16/jusjojan-daily-prompt-jan-16th17/

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The rules for Just Jot It January are as follows:

1. It’s never too late to join in! Here, we run on the honour system; the “jot it” part of JusJoJan means that anything you jot down, anywhere (it doesn’t have to be a post, it can even be a grocery list) counts as a “Jot.” If it makes it to your blog that day, great! If it waits a week to get from a sticky note to your screen, no problem!

2. The prompts will be posted every day at 2am my time (GMT -5). You don’t have to follow the prompt word, but this will be where you leave your link for others to see. Make sure you link your post to the correct day’s prompt. There will be a post like this every day except Wednesday, when the prompt is simply my One-Liner Wednesday, and Saturday, when you’ll find the prompt on my usual Friday Reminder post for Stream of Consciousness Saturday (SoCS).

3. As long as your blog is on WordPress, you’ll be able to link via pingback. To execute a pingback, just copy the URL from the daily prompt post, and paste it anywhere in your post. Check to make sure your link shows up where you want it to, and go back occasionally to see other bloggers’ entries – the more you visit others, the more they’ll visit you! If you’re participating from another blogging host, just drop a link into the comment section. Note: The newest pingbacks and comments will be at the top.

4. Tag your post JusJoJan and/or #JusJoJan.

5. Write anything! Any length will do! It can even be a photo or a drawing – you’re going to title it, right? There’s your jot!

6. The prompts are here both to remind you and to inspire you to write. However, you don’t have to use the prompt word of the day. You can link any kind of jot back here. Even your shopping list. Note: If it’s 18+ content, please say so in a comment with your link.

7. If you’d like to, use the JusJoJan badge (above) in your post so that others can find your post more easily.

8. Have fun!

If you’d like to look ahead to see the upcoming prompt words, click this link: https://lindaghill.com/2016/12/31/just-jot-it-january-2017-rules/ You can always write your post ahead of time and schedule it to come out on the appropriate day.

Love Me, Love My Dog

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Mary Moo

Today’s Just Jot It January prompt is, “mongrel,” provided by Geoff of TanGental.

I like the word “mutt” better than mongrel. It just sounds cuter. But I appreciate the prompt, because it gives me an excuse to write about one of my favorite things: dogs.

“Love me, love my dog,” mom used to say. She was not especially fond of dogs, but she respected that I was crazy about them. I looked up that saying to find and found out it’s an idiom meaning, if you’re going to have a relationship with me, you have to accept what I love. I would add that while you might not love dogs as much as I do, you gotta accept my love for them and how important they are to me. “Must love dogs” was always at the top of my list of characteristics I wanted in a partner. Thankfully my sweetheart fits the bill.

Mutts and mongrels are as lovable as any purebred. They are just as capable as giving the unconditional love that makes me love dogs so much. Most of the dogs loved have been mutts.

Mary Moo, in the picture above, was rescued from the pound about 15 years ago. She appears to be a cross between a beagle and a terrier. She sleeps a lot these days, but there was a time when she was pretty feisty. She did not know how to back down from other dogs and as a result, got into some skirmishes when the step dogs came along a few years ago. It helped that we walked them together as a pack and Mary learned to become submissive to keep the peace.

Here’s a sweet song I found while exploring, “Love Me, Love My Dog.” I might not have found it if Geoff hadn’t come up with the mongrel prompt. So thanks again, Goeff!

 

And thanks Dan Antion for hosting!

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Thttps://lindaghill.com/2017/01/08/jusjojan-daily-prompt-jan-8th17/

Here are the rules for Just Jot It January:

1. It’s never too late to join in! Here, we run on the honour system; the “jot it” part of JusJoJan means that anything you jot down, anywhere (it doesn’t have to be a post, it can even be a grocery list) counts as a “Jot.” If it makes it to your blog that day, great! If it waits a week to get from a sticky note to your screen, no problem!

2. The prompts will be posted every day at 2am my time (GMT -5). You don’t have to follow the prompt word, but this will be where you leave your link for others to see. Make sure you link your post to the correct day’s prompt. There will be a post like this every day except Wednesday, when the prompt is simply my One-Liner Wednesday, and Saturday, when you’ll find the prompt on my usual Friday Reminder post for Stream of Consciousness Saturday (SoCS).

3. As long as your blog is on WordPress, you’ll be able to link via pingback. To execute a pingback, just copy the URL from the daily prompt post, and paste it anywhere in your post. Check to make sure your link shows up where you want it to, and go back occasionally to see other bloggers’ entries – the more you visit others, the more they’ll visit you! If you’re participating from another blogging host, just drop a link into the comment section. Note: The newest pingbacks and comments will be at the top.

4. Tag your post JusJoJan and/or #JusJoJan.

5. Write anything! Any length will do! It can even be a photo or a drawing – you’re going to title it, right? There’s your jot!

6. The prompts are here both to remind you and to inspire you to write. However, you don’t have to use the prompt word of the day. You can link any kind of jot back here. Even your shopping list. Note: If it’s 18+ content, please say so in a comment with your link.

7. If you’d like to, use the JusJoJan badge (above) in your post so that others can find your post more easily.

8. Have fun!

If you’d like to look ahead to see the upcoming prompt words, click this link: https://lindaghill.com/2016/12/31/just-jot-it-january-2017-rules/ You can always write your post ahead of time and schedule it to come out on the appropriate day.

Letting Go of Resentment, Making Room for Love

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“Resentment is like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die.” Carrie Fisher

 

It was easier to be angry

For the pretend power.

I would harden my heart

And never be hurt again.

Funny thing is,

I did get hurt again.

Anger covered up the pain

I kept trying to push away.

Anger grew and solidified

Into a boulder of resentment

So slippery, nothing could stick to it.

So big, no one could get passed it.

Not even me.

Until, I started to find me again,

And I started to like me again.

And then, I started to love me again.

And I prayed

For the willingness

To consider

That thing I couldn’t bring myself to say.

The F word.

Not just for those who hurt me,

But for me, too.

And willingness came

And blew away the dust and debris

Allowing the wind and the rain and the sun

To flow into the cracks

And work magic.

With time,

The boulder began to break apart

Opening a path for love

To make room

For something so much better.

 

One-Liner Wednesday: Be with those who Love YOU the way you are.

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“If you need to pretend or hide your true self, you are with the wrong people.”

Gordana Biernat

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One-Liner Wednesday is brought to us by Linda at

https://lindaghill.com/2016/11/16/one-liner-wednesday-words-and-grace/

I like what she says about the rules:

The rules that I’ve made for myself (but don’t always follow) for “One-Liner Wednesday” are:

1. Make it one sentence.

2. Try to make it either funny or inspirational.

3. Use our unique tag #1linerWeds.

4. Add our very cool badge to your post for extra exposure!

5. Have fun!

One-Liner Wednesday: Dog Hair

 I felt right at home with the dog hair and the abundance of unconditional love.

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I tend to avoid letting people come to my messy house with the dog hair that’s hard to keep up with, but it helps to know other people have mess in their homes, too. A couple weeks ago, I had a wonderful six day reunion with three high school girlfriends at the home of one of the girlfriends who has two sweet dogs. After a few days, patches of dog hair had collected on her beautiful floor, and I felt right at home with the dog hair and the abundance of unconditional love.

One-liner Wednesday is graciously hosted by Linda Hill at:

One-Liner Wednesday – I Thought We Were Roommates!

The rules/guidelines for “One-Liner Wednesday” are:

1. Make it one sentence.

2. Try to make it either funny or inspirational.

3. Use our unique tag #1linerWeds.

4. Add our very cool badge to your post for extra exposure!

5. Have fun!